Small Change Got Rained On, With His Own .38....

I am sitting in the back seat of my parents car after a long weekend and an even longer drive back from NC.  DAMN YOU VIRGINIA! It was awesome to see my brother but even better to see my beautiful niece.  It can get really upsetting to not see her grow up.  Every time I see her, she is so much older, more beautiful and even smarter then the last time.  At breakfast this morning, it was decided that we will re-enact Bad Boys 2 when she gets to the dating age.  I will drive or fly to NC and open the door for the lucky boy.  He will shit is pants when he sees The Uncle Bean and the Father.

We ended up going to a children's museum in Raleigh called Marbles.  Tash literally ran around for hours discovering stuff, creating art and learning so much.  It was amazing watching her go.  My brother is a great father and kept up with her the entire time and did everything and anything she wanted.  I watched the other parents just let their kids go and have 0 interaction with them.  Sad to see the disconnect from parent and child at such a young age, but you can only hope they will learn their lesson.  We also went to the worst outlet mall in history on Sat.  I was siked to see a Used Book store because I was pretty much finished with my current one (The Alchemist...READ IT).  I walked in and noticed that 3/4 of the store was Christian Books and in EVERY sub-genre you can imagine.  They had 1 rack of fiction. 1 rack.  I guess thats the south for you....

I can't believe the change my life has taken since January.  I never thought that while I was in Boston for work last week, I would walk 4 miles to a Shambhala Center for meditation and Dharma discussion or starting tomorrow, I would become Vegan for real this time.  Seeing things from the outside and seeing how much you decisions cost others, it really makes you stop and think.  When you start to look at all living creatures as sentient beings and knowing that you should not consciously cause suffering, it really makes you think about your actions.  Things are going really well but at the same time I have a void deep down inside me that has always been a "thorn in my side".  Starting on Saturday, I start volunteering at the Soup Kitchen.  I am really looking forward to it.  Hopefully it will be extremely rewarding and I will feel that I am using my energy to help others.  The following weekend, I think I am going to a Puppy Mill awareness rally with my good friend April.  Hopefully being active will help fill some of the emptiness I am feeling.  Surgery is coming up in less then 2 months.  Not looking forward to it but looking forward to my shoulder actually being fixed.  My biggest concern is coming out of anesthesia.  I always have such a hard time with it and always get really sick.  It sucks.  BUT...Back to work tomorrow.  I am almost to my house and I will get my ass to sleep.  Work and DharmaPunx meditation session tomorrow night.  Lets keep the POSI ish flowing...